Do Watcha Gotta Do - JoJo ;

I Can't Remember to Forget You;
Whenever There's another,
I Accidently Just Compare You,
But They Don't Measure Up;
Every Mile that I Steer;
Every Song that I Hear is a memory of you,
Please Leave Me Alone;
& No Matter What..
Please Don't Regret all the times You..
Pretend You Don't See Me;
It's Pathetic I try to Despise You,
Just like You Do With Me.
Love just don't disappear especially when it's true..


So keep Callin' Me Names, Babe
Tell Everyone I'm Crazy,
Do what You gotta do..
To Forget about Me & You.
If it's Easier to Hate Me,Then Go On have Your Way, Babe;
Do what You Gotta Do..
To Forget about Me & You.

History - Jay-z ..

Like missing your last shot and falling to your knees/ As the crowd screams for the other team/ I practiced so hard for this moment victory don't leave/ I know what this means, I'm stuck in this routine/ Whole new different day, the same old thing/ All I got is dreams, nobody else can see/ Nobody else believes, nobody else but me/ Where are you victory, I need you desperately ..

Eat, Pray, Love ..

"People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that's what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life.

A true soul mate is probably the most important person you'll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave.

A soul mates purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life, then introduce you to your spiritual master..."
— Elizabeth Gilbert (Eat, Pray, Love: One Woman's Search for Everything Across Italy, India and Indonesia)

Charlotte's Web;

"You have been my friend. That in itself is a tremendous thing. I wove my webs for you because I liked you. After all, what's a life, anyway? We're born, we live a little while, we die. A spider's life can't help being something of a mess, with all this trapping and eating flies. By helping you, perhaps I was trying to lift up my life a trifle. Heaven knows anyone's life can stand a little of that."
Charlotte, "Charlotte's Web"

Beautiful ..

So, I just got back yesterday from an amazing weekend in LA! I stayed with my twin at CSU Dominguez Hills; where i plan on hopefully playing for next season; & after seeing her team play in their conference tournament, I'm more motivated than ever! I've never been so excited in my entire life. & this weekend I also finally learned to let go of what I thought was someone I could fall for. A person can only take so much of one situation before they are finally fed up, & ready to move on. I got to that point Sunday night, & although he thought I was saying goodbye Monday because I was leaving after the weekend, in reality I was saying goodbye to our relationship & saying hello to our friendship. I've learned a lot from this. I've learned to look at the good in bad situations, such as, he brought me & my twin back together; he taught me that I'm not as broken as I thought I was, & that things don't always work out for a reason.


I am so so so happy; & so ready to begin my life. On my way home yesterday, I thought it was so funny; I was completely alone in my car & I just started smiling uncontrollably. But it's just I'm so relieved, I've let go of so much stress with basketball, school, family, relationships; that all that is left, is happiness. Things will get better if you are just patient. So to everyone, just try & notice the good in every situation; it's not easy & it takes a lot of practice; but I promise it is so worth it.


Well, I'm off to school! :-)



Love,
Chels.

I'm Back ..

even tho no one follows my blogggg;
it still feels good to let things out.


along the way, i’ve learned that you can’t let anyone in too far and you can’t trust endlessly. the biggest mistake you can make is to care or love someone more than yourself, because then you are just setting yourself up for disappointment. boundaries are necessary so that you can protect yourself,because once you’re broken, you’ll never be fully fixed.

November 11, 2004

imy. ily.