Found it.

i haven't been this happy in 2 years. Thank you.

Do Watcha Gotta Do - JoJo ;

I Can't Remember to Forget You;
Whenever There's another,
I Accidently Just Compare You,
But They Don't Measure Up;
Every Mile that I Steer;
Every Song that I Hear is a memory of you,
Please Leave Me Alone;
& No Matter What..
Please Don't Regret all the times You..
Pretend You Don't See Me;
It's Pathetic I try to Despise You,
Just like You Do With Me.
Love just don't disappear especially when it's true..


So keep Callin' Me Names, Babe
Tell Everyone I'm Crazy,
Do what You gotta do..
To Forget about Me & You.
If it's Easier to Hate Me,Then Go On have Your Way, Babe;
Do what You Gotta Do..
To Forget about Me & You.

History - Jay-z ..

Like missing your last shot and falling to your knees/ As the crowd screams for the other team/ I practiced so hard for this moment victory don't leave/ I know what this means, I'm stuck in this routine/ Whole new different day, the same old thing/ All I got is dreams, nobody else can see/ Nobody else believes, nobody else but me/ Where are you victory, I need you desperately ..

Eat, Pray, Love ..

"People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that's what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life.

A true soul mate is probably the most important person you'll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave.

A soul mates purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life, then introduce you to your spiritual master..."
— Elizabeth Gilbert (Eat, Pray, Love: One Woman's Search for Everything Across Italy, India and Indonesia)

Charlotte's Web;

"You have been my friend. That in itself is a tremendous thing. I wove my webs for you because I liked you. After all, what's a life, anyway? We're born, we live a little while, we die. A spider's life can't help being something of a mess, with all this trapping and eating flies. By helping you, perhaps I was trying to lift up my life a trifle. Heaven knows anyone's life can stand a little of that."
Charlotte, "Charlotte's Web"

Beautiful ..

So, I just got back yesterday from an amazing weekend in LA! I stayed with my twin at CSU Dominguez Hills; where i plan on hopefully playing for next season; & after seeing her team play in their conference tournament, I'm more motivated than ever! I've never been so excited in my entire life. & this weekend I also finally learned to let go of what I thought was someone I could fall for. A person can only take so much of one situation before they are finally fed up, & ready to move on. I got to that point Sunday night, & although he thought I was saying goodbye Monday because I was leaving after the weekend, in reality I was saying goodbye to our relationship & saying hello to our friendship. I've learned a lot from this. I've learned to look at the good in bad situations, such as, he brought me & my twin back together; he taught me that I'm not as broken as I thought I was, & that things don't always work out for a reason.


I am so so so happy; & so ready to begin my life. On my way home yesterday, I thought it was so funny; I was completely alone in my car & I just started smiling uncontrollably. But it's just I'm so relieved, I've let go of so much stress with basketball, school, family, relationships; that all that is left, is happiness. Things will get better if you are just patient. So to everyone, just try & notice the good in every situation; it's not easy & it takes a lot of practice; but I promise it is so worth it.


Well, I'm off to school! :-)



Love,
Chels.

I'm Back ..

even tho no one follows my blogggg;
it still feels good to let things out.


along the way, i’ve learned that you can’t let anyone in too far and you can’t trust endlessly. the biggest mistake you can make is to care or love someone more than yourself, because then you are just setting yourself up for disappointment. boundaries are necessary so that you can protect yourself,because once you’re broken, you’ll never be fully fixed.

November 11, 2004

imy. ily.

Houstantlantavegas ..

"She doesn't ever worry, if she wants it she'll get it on her own; she knows there's more to life, & she's scared of ending up alone .. "

Shattered Dreams ..

In May 2008 I underwent surgery on my left knee because of a torn lateral miniscus; in yesterday's game against Mira Costa, I possibly (most likely) retore it. Possible end of the season for me. I've never felt so lost, I had so many plans for the next 2 years. Playing at a 4-year school, being successful on the court. Now normally miniscus tears aren't so bad, but because I tore it before & no longer have any cartilage left in my knee, things don't look too swell for me. But I'm trying my best to keep my head high, hoping I only have a hyper extended knee; but I'm truely heartbroken.

"Everything happens for a reason .. "

Bob Marley.

"You may not be her first love, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again, but if she loves you now, what else matters? She's not perfect - you aren't either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you two think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day but she will give give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don't hurt her, don't change her, don't analyze, and don't expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she's not there."


i'm learning to open up again;

L is for the way...

"I am coming to terms with the fact that loving someone requires a leap of faith, and that a soft landing is never guaranteed. " — Sarah Dessen.


.. & she couldn't have put it into better words.

Patty Cake, Patty Cake...

so, i was just talking to one of my good friends who seemed to be upset; so of course i asked her what was wrong. she told me a story, & of course i'm not going to put her business out there; but i can give you the main point of the story. basically, there was someone out there who had enough time on their hands to call her parents and make up a horrible story about her and her lifestyle. the reason this irriated me so much is the fact that some people have nothing better to do with their lives than try and mess up someone else's. it's amazing the incredible lengths a single person would go. but i guess it just goes to show how much a life that "anonymous" person has. it only goes to show how cowardly some people can really be.


the sad part about all of this this is it's a bunch of young "adults" who are pulling these petty little games. yanno, the reason i was so glad to graduate from high school was because i was thinking i would finally be able to get away from the bullshit. my friend tried to warn me that "college" is just like high school, except slightly worse. i didn't want to believe him, but of course i learned through my own experiences; it does in fact get worse.



i guess some where just never meant to "grow up."

Unspoken Words ..

i never make any sense ..