Houstantlantavegas ..

"She doesn't ever worry, if she wants it she'll get it on her own; she knows there's more to life, & she's scared of ending up alone .. "

Shattered Dreams ..

In May 2008 I underwent surgery on my left knee because of a torn lateral miniscus; in yesterday's game against Mira Costa, I possibly (most likely) retore it. Possible end of the season for me. I've never felt so lost, I had so many plans for the next 2 years. Playing at a 4-year school, being successful on the court. Now normally miniscus tears aren't so bad, but because I tore it before & no longer have any cartilage left in my knee, things don't look too swell for me. But I'm trying my best to keep my head high, hoping I only have a hyper extended knee; but I'm truely heartbroken.

"Everything happens for a reason .. "

Bob Marley.

"You may not be her first love, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again, but if she loves you now, what else matters? She's not perfect - you aren't either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you two think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day but she will give give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don't hurt her, don't change her, don't analyze, and don't expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she's not there."


i'm learning to open up again;

L is for the way...

"I am coming to terms with the fact that loving someone requires a leap of faith, and that a soft landing is never guaranteed. " — Sarah Dessen.


.. & she couldn't have put it into better words.

Patty Cake, Patty Cake...

so, i was just talking to one of my good friends who seemed to be upset; so of course i asked her what was wrong. she told me a story, & of course i'm not going to put her business out there; but i can give you the main point of the story. basically, there was someone out there who had enough time on their hands to call her parents and make up a horrible story about her and her lifestyle. the reason this irriated me so much is the fact that some people have nothing better to do with their lives than try and mess up someone else's. it's amazing the incredible lengths a single person would go. but i guess it just goes to show how much a life that "anonymous" person has. it only goes to show how cowardly some people can really be.


the sad part about all of this this is it's a bunch of young "adults" who are pulling these petty little games. yanno, the reason i was so glad to graduate from high school was because i was thinking i would finally be able to get away from the bullshit. my friend tried to warn me that "college" is just like high school, except slightly worse. i didn't want to believe him, but of course i learned through my own experiences; it does in fact get worse.



i guess some where just never meant to "grow up."

Unspoken Words ..

i never make any sense ..